beautyindeath1997

it can take one person to change everything he comes in to your life at the wrong time but makes it the right time but the paranoia that he hates you makes you push him away he makes you smile and laugh more then anyone but at night you cry thinking that its all until he finds someone better someone who's easier to be around who doesn't need medication or therapy doesn't have all the issues you do but for now you smile as if nothings wrong like life is normal like your not completely broken must hide how you feel until you know for sure DOES HE REALLY LIKE YOU FOR YOU ??

you broke me I can never forgive you my spirit and soul forever shattered ill never be whole again dead on the inside I put on a mask for the world.... concealing the truth smiling, never changing on the outside cant let him see he would run the pain I'm in the pain must be hidden why did you have to destroy you took my body and tore it half was it my fault why would you do this to me you took from me what I can never get back I cry myself to sleep nightmares filling my room waking up shaking not being able to breathe for the terror I feel torments me why did this happen to me why choose to ruin me was it my fault???

my mind is a mess all my thoughts are scrambled all I want to be is accepted I lie awake at night not being able to sleep not being able to shut my mind up my anxiety multiples as the hour goes on fears becoming nightmares fear of the dark, of what lies within it fear of lose, of losing the person I care most about fear of life, of not being perfect, of needing to change my self to be accepted the fear of the outside world the world outside of the safety of my room, where people don't accept me calling me fat, ugly, stupid, slut but if I change so that I become accepted by others then am I harming myself does it get rid of the respect I

go outside and look around what do you see.... the smiling children. the sun, the sea, nature. people walking around happily, they don't notice the bad.  the ugly and the awful world around us  what you don't notice is all the poverty  the disasters that happen tornados, hurricanes, earthquakes but to make it worse  people tear down the trees, the destroy the ozone, people get murdered, kidnapped and sold everyday criminals walk free you walk down a lonely street and you see the shadows that seem like they follow you you start walking faster and faster this is because you fear the unknown  you may not notice the bad t

when everyone is gone and your alone with your thoughts what will happen will you be able to handle the dark thoughts the misery and pain of your past or will your remember the good times the times where your friends were around the times where you felt loved and cared for truly being alone with your thoughts for to long it causes havoc on your mind, on your memories it can make you forget the good so the only thing left to remember is the heartbreak when everyone left you alone          they were gone do you think about the truth or what you want the truth to be can you force yourself to believ